(F23, 5’4”)I asked my boyfriend take some “before” pictures
to help keep me accountable. It was humiliating.
I would have done it myself, but we don’t have a mirror that would capture everything, and I also wanted to take pictures of my back. So I asked him to take the pictures this morning.
You could tell I was incredibly uncomfortable in the pictures. I felt so ashamed looking at them, seeing myself at my heaviest. I used to be at 120 pounds, and shot up to 152 this past year.
I’m sad that I was so scared my boyfriend of almost 5 years would be disgusted at how big I’ve gotten.
But despite all that, I’m glad he did it. He wasn’t grossed out, he was just happy I want to take care of myself. I’m happy he’s supportive of me. I’m happy to be making these changes for myself, and excited to feel comfortable with my naked body in front of my boyfriend who loves me and deserves someone he enjoys to look at.
I don’t know. I feel like this is all so cheesy. I’m hoping to be able to have some “after” pictures by 6 months, or at most, the end of the year. I’ve done it before, so I know I can do it again!
Thanks for reading.